Brajeshwar

Ashna passes away

Aug 12, 2004 (Thu) at 11:44 pm — By Brajeshwar

Catherine Ashna Mittal Why do God become greedy at times? Why does He want good people to be by his side sooner than they should be? The shocking news hit me, Ashna passes away. I wished, I never come to know of this and that the ‘anticipated IM Alert’ should lie dormant forever. Ashna, I will miss you for the remaining days to come.

Below are some of the excerpt from our IM talk, saved mostly during the days when I realized the truth. These IM talks are the only remains with me that is left of her. Message archive is of a typical Trillian Pro message archiving system.

(The pet mentioned in the chat is a puppy that I have, who never pissed, bark and is immobile. His name is Jack and the picture is below. And Ashna, from Toronto, Canada was never able to send me her picture other than the one I have currently. She talked to me through Yahoo! Messenger from her Dell Laptop while she was in hospital.)

Session Start (Yahoo! – Brajeshwar:Ashna): Sun Apr 11 08:42:57 2004
Ashna: abe mumbai wale…bahut dinong ke baat dekh-lare…..kya haal hain
Brajeshwar: I am fine!
Ashna: mumbai me bahut traffic hain?
Brajeshwar: are you here?
Ashna: haha..no, silly!
Brajeshwar: damn, my heart skip a beat
Ashna: so..how r u dear
Ashna: everything is fit?
Brajeshwar: I am fine fine, thanks
Ashna: pet…haal chaal……ladki…family..wagera wagera
Brajeshwar: pet i gave him away to somebody, haal chaal — cool, ladki — aab nahin
Brajeshwar: Ok, how is class?
Ashna: i told u…about me, and u know that i can’t!
Brajeshwar: Are you really sure about this! I still cannot let it sink properly in the back of my mind
Ashna: i think i know wats going on wit me…
Brajeshwar: BTW, is your India trip planned?
Ashna: can’t come
Brajeshwar: why, what happen?
Ashna: doc says not to
Brajeshwar: Holy Moses, that sounds serious!
Ashna: am in hospital
Ashna: haven’t been in school for 3months
Ashna: i missed one semester and many more will be missed
Brajeshwar: What are the doctors saying, there should be some way out
Ashna: mine was diagnosed late
Brajeshwar: there should still be something, we are now in the 21st century, right
Ashna: as long as the cancer is in the bone marrow
Ashna: u can have a transplant but mine is spread now
Brajeshwar: From whom are you inheriting this? This is supposed to be inherited?
Ashna: i don’t think it is inherited
Ashna: or may be coz…my ancestors
Brajeshwar: It is, someone in your family pedigree must have had it
Brajeshwar: even if they did not notice the same
Ashna: grandma grandpa..
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Brajeshwar: I am so sorry! Why are all this happening to someone so sweet like you
Ashna: life hain
Ashna: jhelna parta hain
Brajeshwar: I wish I could do something
Brajeshwar: May be just be by your side for sometime and share some time with you
Ashna:
Brajeshwar: I would like to sooth your heart, may be caress your soul and tell you stories, laugh with you
Ashna: thanx for dat
Brajeshwar: I wish I could see you someday
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Brajeshwar: Ok, can you tell me some more details, and is it possible that I ask the world to pray for you (I will write it without mentioning your name if you wish)
Ashna: no, don’t tell anybody
Brajeshwar: ok dear, I won’t till you say something
Ashna: am telling u coz i trust u
Brajeshwar: And I will honor that
Brajeshwar: It must be late in the evening right?
Ashna: its 11’42 pm
Brajeshwar: So are you in bed most of the time?
Ashna: yep! am in hospital bed now
Ashna: wit some funky wires attached
Brajeshwar: how long have you been there and how long will you be there
Ashna: been here for like 1 and hlf month
Ashna: donno..when am getting out
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Session Close (Ashna): Sun Apr 11 09:22:25 2004

Jack Session Start (Yahoo! – Brajeshwar:Ashna): Tue Apr 20 02:46:44 2004
Ashna: hi
Brajeshwar: hi, how are you today
Brajeshwar: Are you still in hospital
Ashna: yes
Ashna: am fine, u?
Brajeshwar: I am fine too
Brajeshwar: life is so harse to you and I am beginning to hate god for this
Ashna: hey…c’mon, life is life
Brajeshwar: God is a mean creature with a magnifying glass pointed at you at this moment
Ashna: c’mon
Brajeshwar: Ashna, if I can do anything to minus even a few things to make you better and well again, I won’t hesitate to go that extra mile
Ashna: hey thanx, but am use to this kind of life
Brajeshwar: But Ashna, this is not really a good thing
Brajeshwar: I mean why to such a nice person like you
Ashna: hmmmmm, i’ll ask god
Brajeshwar: no no please not yet, I don’t even want to know
Brajeshwar: stay here on this earth and be my friend for sometime
Ashna: haha
Brajeshwar: don’t make me that unlucky person to miss a good friend so soon
Brajeshwar: I wish to meet you atleast once!
Ashna: we’ll
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Session Close (Ashna): Tue Apr 20 03:09:17 2004

Session Start (Brajeshwar:Ashna): Sun Jun 13 22:03:40 2004
Brajeshwar: I read your message on e-pao, hey, you are really a brave girl
Ashna: thx… so had dinner?
Brajeshwar: almost, I have relatives visiting me from home and my cousin is cooking
Ashna: n..flowers..u can send once am at home care
Brajeshwar: I would, let me know
Ashna: wats cooking
Brajeshwar: I have the good opportunity of eating some Manipuri style foods these days
Ashna: oh..now thats great
Ashna: so watelse r u doing
Brajeshwar: well, in my personal life or professional?
Ashna: go wit whatever u r comfortable with telling me
Brajeshwar: hmmmm, I told you my girlfriend left me and the reason was about caste (funny hearing in the 21st century though and with my open attitude)
Ashna: ya..doesn’t suit u that much
Ashna: hey,..u gotta go thru it to find the right one
Brajeshwar: She is Bamon (Brahmin in Manipur) and they do not like meitei guys
Ashna: ok..
Ashna: but i’ve seen many brahmins marrying meitei
Brajeshwar: yes but this one turn out to be a hard nut to crack
Brajeshwar: so I stop trying, and let her go her way
Ashna: ok..
Brajeshwar: Hey, can I ask you something?
Ashna: sure
Ashna: lucky whoever is gonna be ur girl
Ashna: u r so romantic n sweet n caring..
Brajeshwar: thanks
Brajeshwar: I have few questions for you now after reading your article, can I?
Ashna: sure
Brajeshwar: do any of your blood parents anything to do with Manipuri
Ashna: umm…i don’t have manipuri blood..in me
Brajeshwar: so the manipuri is from your current mother?
Ashna: yes my mom is meitei..but shez the one that adopted me
Ashna: my other parents r gujarati n marathi
Brajeshwar: no kids from the Marathi Mother?
Ashna: i was her first kid
Ashna: n she died after 10 days i was born
Brajeshwar: you mean are you the kid of the marathi mom?
Ashna: yes..
Brajeshwar: but R. Mittal is your real father?
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Ashna: if i can go to india once before…/the time
Brajeshwar: that will be sweet
Ashna: so..if i do
Ashna: we’ll meet for sure
Brajeshwar: BTW, why are they sending you back home next month? are you gettiing better
Ashna: no..its just..i don’t like staying in hospital
Ashna: n..home care wud be better
Brajeshwar: ok
Ashna: wud be hiring a nurse
Ashna: n..now there is less emergencies…
Brajeshwar: and how is your hamster?
Ashna: they r fine
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Session Close (Ashna): Sun Jun 13 22:32:39 2004

Session Start (Brajeshwar:Ashna): Thu Jul 15 21:59:08 2004
Ashna: howz u
Brajeshwar: I am fine, pretty fine, thanks and what is happening to your side
Ashna: u didn’t tell me that u put that article on ur page/…
Ashna: wit that ugly pic
Brajeshwar: I never realized you will ever saw that!
Ashna: well i did!!!
Ashna: y didn’t u tell me
Ashna: that was so sweet of u
Brajeshwar: I was afraid I might hurt you in some way, and that is the last thing I will do
Ashna: c’mon…now…y wud i think that way
Brajeshwar: ok, that is so sweet of you
Ashna: i was a bit surprised
Brajeshwar: I felt that I want to read those times and again, so I kept it there permanent on my site
Brajeshwar: so am I expecting a more beautiful picture to replace that not-so good one (it is good though to me)
Ashna: lol
Ashna: may be
Brajeshwar: ok, send me a beautiful picture
Brajeshwar: I will replace it with that
Brajeshwar: are you at the hospital
Ashna: yep
Brajeshwar: you were suppose to go home?
Ashna: yeah but..not anymore
Brajeshwar: why is that
Ashna: conmdition is bad
Brajeshwar: what happen?
Ashna: getting worse
Ashna: heys
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Ashna: since when did manipuri women started protesting naked?
Brajeshwar: meaning?, I don’t get you!
Brajeshwar: did you read something somewhere?
Ashna: its on the news
Ashna: at kangla gate
Ashna: on e-pao, its on headlines
Brajeshwar: OMG
Brajeshwar: I never knew, i could never visit e-pao, been too busy
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Session Close (Ashna): Thu Jul 15 22:45:08 2004

Session Start (Brajeshwar:Ashna): Fri Aug 06 00:45:59 2004
Ashna: hey
Brajeshwar: so how are you
Ashna: am good, u?
Brajeshwar: I am good too
Ashna: so late?
Ashna: neend nahi aa rahi kya
Brajeshwar: I think this is my normal time, the geek time
Session Close (Ashna): Fri Aug 06 00:49:59 2004

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Bobby

Braj, very touching post. May her soul rest in peace...
Bobby

Braj, very touching post. May her soul rest in peace...
Pat

I'm so sorry.
Pat

I'm so sorry.
http://www.arpit.net/blog aj

God bless her soul and give courage to her family at this hard time.
http://www.arpit.net/blog aj

God bless her soul and give courage to her family at this hard time.
http://www.webapper.net Mike Brunt

I have not visited your site often and this is so sad yet at least you brought some comfort and happiness into her life with your chats. I have a good friend who tells me that things that we take for granted can change so quickly and it is true. May she rest in peace with your spirit in her soul.
http://www.webapper.net Mike Brunt

I have not visited your site often and this is so sad yet at least you brought some comfort and happiness into her life with your chats. I have a good friend who tells me that things that we take for granted can change so quickly and it is true. May she rest in peace with your spirit in her soul.
Ravi

May her soul rest in peace.
-Ravi
Ravi

May her soul rest in peace.
-Ravi
Balaji Bashyam

Sad... may god bless her soul!
-Balaji
Balaji Bashyam

Sad... may god bless her soul!
-Balaji
sam

Very Sad to know about this shocking news. I read about her few months back at your website.
Really paining.
May God bless her Soul!!
sam

Very Sad to know about this shocking news. I read about her few months back at your website.
Really paining.
May God bless her Soul!!
http://www.abdulqabiz.com/blog/ Abdul Qabiz

Its really shocking...Why GOD does this...

May God bless her soul..
http://www.abdulqabiz.com/blog/ Abdul Qabiz

Its really shocking...Why GOD does this...

May God bless her soul..
romola

I don't know about God but It's about life. Cherish the good times you had with her. May her soul rest in peace!

take care
romola

I don't know about God but It's about life. Cherish the good times you had with her. May her soul rest in peace!

take care
S. H. Promila Devi

hey...

just read the chat msgs...n its very touchy...may her soul be rest in peace...

Regards
Promila
S. H. Promila Devi

hey...

just read the chat msgs...n its very touchy...may her soul be rest in peace...

Regards
Promila
bhattathiri

One of the greatest contributions of India to the world is Holy Gita which is considered to be one of the first revelations from God. The management lessons in this holy book were brought in to light of the world by divine Maharshi Mahesh Yogi and Sri Sri RaviShankar, and the spiritual philosophy by Sr. Srila Prabhupada Swami and humanism by Mata Amritanandamayi Devi and Satya Sai Baba. Maharishi calls the Bhagavad-Gita the essence of Vedic Literature and a complete guide to practical life. It provides "all that is needed to raise the consciousness of man to the highest possible level." Maharishi reveals the deep, universal truths of life that speak to the needs and aspirations of everyone. Arjuna got mentally depressed when he saw his relatives with whom he has to fight.( Mental health has become a major international public health concern now). To motivate him the Bhagavad Gita is preached in the battle field Kurukshetra by Lord Krishna to Arjuna as a counseling to do his duty while multitudes of men stood by waiting. It has got all the management tactics to achieve the mental equilibrium and to overcome any crisis situation. The Bhagavad Gita can be experienced as a powerful catalyst for transformation. Bhagavad gita means song of the Spirit, song of the Lord. The Holy Gita has become a secret driving force behind the unfoldment of one's life. In the days of doubt this divine book will support all spiritual searches. This divine book will contribute to self reflection, finer feeling and deepen one's inner process. Then life in the world can become a real educationÃ‡Æ’Ã“dynamic, full and joyfulÃ‡Æ’Ã“no matter what the circumstance. May the wisdom of loving consciousness ever guide us on our journey? What makes the Holy Gita a practical psychology of transformation is that it offers us the tools to connect with our deepest intangible essence and we must learn to participate in the battle of life with right knowledge?

The Holy Gita is the essence of the Vedas, Upanishads. It is a universal scripture applicable to people of all temperaments and for all times. It is a book with sublime thoughts and practical instructions on Yoga, Devotion, Vedanta and Action. It is profound in thought and sublime in heights of vision. It brings peace and solace to souls that are afflicted by the three fires of mortal existence, namely, afflictions caused by one's own body (disease etc), those caused by beings around one (e.g. wild animals, snakes etc.), and those caused by the gods (natural disasters, earth-quakes, floods etc).

Mind can be one's friend or enemy. Mind is the cause for both bondage and liberation. The word mind is derived from man to think and the word man derived from manu (sanskrit word for man).

"The Supreme Lord is situated in everyone's heart, O Arjuna, and is directing the wanderings of all living entities, who are seated as on a machine, made of the material energy."

There is no theory to be internalized and applied in this psychology. Ancient practices spontaneously induce what each person needs as the individual and the universal coincide. The work proceeds through intellectual knowledge of the playing field (jnana yoga), emotional devotion to the ideal (bhakti yoga) and right action that includes both feeling and knowledge(karma yoga). With ongoing purification we approach wisdom. The Bhagavad Gita is a message addressed to each and every human individual to help him or her to solve the vexing problem of overcoming the present and progressing towards a bright future. Within its eighteen chapters is revealed a human drama. This is the experience of everyone in this world, the drama of the ascent of man from a state of utter dejection, sorrow and total breakdown and hopelessness to a state of perfect understanding, clarity, renewed strength and triumph
bhattathiri

One of the greatest contributions of India to the world is Holy Gita which is considered to be one of the first revelations from God. The management lessons in this holy book were brought in to light of the world by divine Maharshi Mahesh Yogi and Sri Sri RaviShankar, and the spiritual philosophy by Sr. Srila Prabhupada Swami and humanism by Mata Amritanandamayi Devi and Satya Sai Baba. Maharishi calls the Bhagavad-Gita the essence of Vedic Literature and a complete guide to practical life. It provides "all that is needed to raise the consciousness of man to the highest possible level." Maharishi reveals the deep, universal truths of life that speak to the needs and aspirations of everyone. Arjuna got mentally depressed when he saw his relatives with whom he has to fight.( Mental health has become a major international public health concern now). To motivate him the Bhagavad Gita is preached in the battle field Kurukshetra by Lord Krishna to Arjuna as a counseling to do his duty while multitudes of men stood by waiting. It has got all the management tactics to achieve the mental equilibrium and to overcome any crisis situation. The Bhagavad Gita can be experienced as a powerful catalyst for transformation. Bhagavad gita means song of the Spirit, song of the Lord. The Holy Gita has become a secret driving force behind the unfoldment of one's life. In the days of doubt this divine book will support all spiritual searches. This divine book will contribute to self reflection, finer feeling and deepen one's inner process. Then life in the world can become a real educationÃ‡Æ’Ã“dynamic, full and joyfulÃ‡Æ’Ã“no matter what the circumstance. May the wisdom of loving consciousness ever guide us on our journey? What makes the Holy Gita a practical psychology of transformation is that it offers us the tools to connect with our deepest intangible essence and we must learn to participate in the battle of life with right knowledge?

The Holy Gita is the essence of the Vedas, Upanishads. It is a universal scripture applicable to people of all temperaments and for all times. It is a book with sublime thoughts and practical instructions on Yoga, Devotion, Vedanta and Action. It is profound in thought and sublime in heights of vision. It brings peace and solace to souls that are afflicted by the three fires of mortal existence, namely, afflictions caused by one's own body (disease etc), those caused by beings around one (e.g. wild animals, snakes etc.), and those caused by the gods (natural disasters, earth-quakes, floods etc).

Mind can be one's friend or enemy. Mind is the cause for both bondage and liberation. The word mind is derived from man to think and the word man derived from manu (sanskrit word for man).

"The Supreme Lord is situated in everyone's heart, O Arjuna, and is directing the wanderings of all living entities, who are seated as on a machine, made of the material energy."

There is no theory to be internalized and applied in this psychology. Ancient practices spontaneously induce what each person needs as the individual and the universal coincide. The work proceeds through intellectual knowledge of the playing field (jnana yoga), emotional devotion to the ideal (bhakti yoga) and right action that includes both feeling and knowledge(karma yoga). With ongoing purification we approach wisdom. The Bhagavad Gita is a message addressed to each and every human individual to help him or her to solve the vexing problem of overcoming the present and progressing towards a bright future. Within its eighteen chapters is revealed a human drama. This is the experience of everyone in this world, the drama of the ascent of man from a state of utter dejection, sorrow and total breakdown and hopelessness to a state of perfect understanding, clarity, renewed strength and triumph
Ashna

MY name is ashna
i am 15 and this site makes me feel sad
but i feel like i can connect to ashna
Ashna

MY name is ashna
i am 15 and this site makes me feel sad
but i feel like i can connect to ashna
sarah

we belong to God, and we return to God....
GOd blessed her with your friendship, and blessed you with her friendship... i hope you will find peace, brother, and one day to catch up with her & laugh together in Jannat, with all friends and all family. but in meantime enjoy life here & do best what we can do.
sarah

we belong to God, and we return to God....
GOd blessed her with your friendship, and blessed you with her friendship... i hope you will find peace, brother, and one day to catch up with her & laugh together in Jannat, with all friends and all family. but in meantime enjoy life here & do best what we can do.